1 00:00:00,178 --> 00:00:01,878 _ 2 00:00:01,879 --> 00:00:04,380 In four short months, I had evolved. 3 00:00:04,381 --> 00:00:06,348 I'd gone from "that girl who tried to kill herself" 4 00:00:06,349 --> 00:00:09,518 to "that girl who had a date on New Year's Eve." 5 00:00:09,519 --> 00:00:10,820 You want another chance? 6 00:00:10,821 --> 00:00:11,953 I won't screw up again. 7 00:00:11,954 --> 00:00:13,021 I came with Jake. 8 00:00:13,022 --> 00:00:15,691 But you can stay with me. 9 00:00:15,692 --> 00:00:17,425 I chose Jake, and now we can't be alone 10 00:00:17,426 --> 00:00:19,294 without Matty tagging along, trying to tempt me. 11 00:00:19,295 --> 00:00:20,696 The whole situation is weird. 12 00:00:20,697 --> 00:00:22,263 I hate to admit this, 13 00:00:22,264 --> 00:00:23,498 but Matty might be trying to home wreck you. 14 00:00:23,499 --> 00:00:25,567 - Nice job, McKibben. - What? 15 00:00:25,568 --> 00:00:27,935 You are totally sabotaging them. 16 00:00:27,936 --> 00:00:29,804 Ricky's the missed connection! 17 00:00:29,805 --> 00:00:31,438 He's her what? 18 00:00:33,341 --> 00:00:34,809 Ricky? 19 00:00:34,810 --> 00:00:36,977 Ricky! 20 00:00:36,978 --> 00:00:38,478 You really are the fool. 21 00:00:38,479 --> 00:00:40,981 Ask Matty-- he had a piece of your Hamilton pie 22 00:00:40,982 --> 00:00:42,416 long before you did. 23 00:00:42,417 --> 00:00:44,851 Okay, McKibben, time to come clean. 24 00:00:44,852 --> 00:00:46,285 Please don't do this. 25 00:00:46,286 --> 00:00:48,254 Uhh! 26 00:00:48,255 --> 00:00:49,522 I fucked your girlfriend! 27 00:00:49,523 --> 00:00:50,857 We've decided not to let 28 00:00:50,858 --> 00:00:51,958 a girl come between us. 29 00:00:51,959 --> 00:00:52,959 So you need to choose-- 30 00:00:52,960 --> 00:00:54,293 him or me. 31 00:00:54,294 --> 00:00:57,230 Maybe the timing's finally right. 32 00:00:57,231 --> 00:00:58,464 We're going to Europe! 33 00:00:58,465 --> 00:00:59,665 Too late. The trip's full. 34 00:00:59,666 --> 00:01:01,300 I took the last slot. 35 00:01:01,301 --> 00:01:02,735 - I made out with Jake. - I made out with Jake. 36 00:01:02,736 --> 00:01:04,604 You have a trip. I'm not going. 37 00:01:04,605 --> 00:01:05,671 My spot is yours. 38 00:01:05,672 --> 00:01:08,527 I finally got what I really wanted. 39 00:01:08,562 --> 00:01:11,162 But I wasn't sure it was what I needed. 40 00:01:12,279 --> 00:01:13,779 Junior year. 41 00:01:13,780 --> 00:01:15,481 Junior year was like the Thursday night of high school, 42 00:01:15,482 --> 00:01:16,881 and the beginning of the end. 43 00:01:16,882 --> 00:01:18,283 I was growing up. 44 00:01:18,284 --> 00:01:20,785 Victoria had finally let me in on her secret. 45 00:01:20,786 --> 00:01:23,821 Padding. Lots and lots of padding. 46 00:01:23,822 --> 00:01:26,591 But, underneath it, I was actually blossoming. 47 00:01:26,592 --> 00:01:27,792 Changing. 48 00:01:27,793 --> 00:01:28,793 And the thought of it made me-- 49 00:01:28,794 --> 00:01:30,262 Nervous? 50 00:01:30,263 --> 00:01:31,796 No. Yeah. 51 00:01:31,797 --> 00:01:33,497 Probably just first-day jitters, right? 52 00:01:33,498 --> 00:01:34,565 What are you nervous about? 53 00:01:34,566 --> 00:01:35,566 I don't know. 54 00:01:35,567 --> 00:01:36,967 But I did. 55 00:01:36,968 --> 00:01:38,869 I hadn't seen Tamara or Ming all summer. 56 00:01:38,870 --> 00:01:41,305 Either they were out of town or I was, 57 00:01:41,306 --> 00:01:44,808 and when I wasn't... 58 00:01:44,809 --> 00:01:46,943 I was wrapped up in my cocoon, 59 00:01:46,944 --> 00:01:48,878 my cocoon of Matty. 60 00:01:50,213 --> 00:01:53,750 I had disappeared into my relationship, 61 00:01:53,751 --> 00:01:57,186 and forgotten about my friends. 62 00:01:57,187 --> 00:01:58,087 Ready? 63 00:01:58,088 --> 00:01:59,756 Can't we just stay here? 64 00:01:59,757 --> 00:02:01,791 Nope. It is time to be-- 65 00:02:01,792 --> 00:02:03,826 Independent study. 66 00:02:03,827 --> 00:02:05,560 That's the elective I signed up for, 67 00:02:05,561 --> 00:02:07,562 not creative writing. 68 00:02:07,563 --> 00:02:10,231 Can you fix it? 69 00:02:10,232 --> 00:02:12,534 What do you think about the metamorphosis? 70 00:02:12,535 --> 00:02:14,536 Pretty chic, huh? 71 00:02:14,537 --> 00:02:15,937 Love is a game changer. 72 00:02:15,938 --> 00:02:17,606 Is she still hung up on Ricky? 73 00:02:17,607 --> 00:02:19,140 Good one. 74 00:02:19,141 --> 00:02:21,442 Although I wonder if Ricky has anything to do 75 00:02:21,443 --> 00:02:23,678 with why Tamara and Jake aren't online official. 76 00:02:23,679 --> 00:02:25,346 But any day now. Right? 77 00:02:25,347 --> 00:02:26,514 Right. I knew that. 78 00:02:26,515 --> 00:02:28,081 But I didn't. 79 00:02:28,082 --> 00:02:30,050 I didn't know anything about Tamara's life. 80 00:02:30,051 --> 00:02:31,952 What about you? Where have you been all summer? 81 00:02:31,953 --> 00:02:34,322 Working for my grandparents in Moorpark. 82 00:02:34,323 --> 00:02:36,423 It's like the pit of the Earth. 83 00:02:36,424 --> 00:02:37,724 But I learned Mandarin. 84 00:02:37,725 --> 00:02:38,991 You finally speak Chinese? 85 00:02:38,992 --> 00:02:43,596 Ix-nay on the Chinese-ay. 86 00:02:43,597 --> 00:02:45,865 Mafia is everywhere, 87 00:02:45,866 --> 00:02:48,134 and they can't know what I know. 88 00:02:48,135 --> 00:02:50,203 It's all about the long play. 89 00:02:50,204 --> 00:02:51,338 Gotta go! 90 00:02:51,339 --> 00:02:53,605 I'm gonna get the deets on the new 'do. 91 00:02:53,606 --> 00:02:56,742 Normally, we spend hours debating a simple trim, 92 00:02:56,743 --> 00:02:57,943 and suddenly, she had hacked and whacked 93 00:02:57,944 --> 00:02:59,478 without even a text. 94 00:02:59,479 --> 00:03:02,147 Maybe it wasn't me that had forgotten my friends. 95 00:03:02,148 --> 00:03:04,350 Maybe it was my friends that had forgotten me. 96 00:03:04,351 --> 00:03:05,517 My girl. 97 00:03:05,518 --> 00:03:07,653 Thankfully, some things never changed. 98 00:03:07,654 --> 00:03:13,358 Su cabellaes muy bonita. 99 00:03:13,359 --> 00:03:14,959 Or they did. 100 00:03:16,932 --> 00:03:19,889 Sync and corrections by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com 101 00:03:22,334 --> 00:03:23,267 Yeah. 102 00:03:23,268 --> 00:03:25,635 - It's your girl. - "T." 103 00:03:25,636 --> 00:03:27,004 Oh. "J." 104 00:03:27,005 --> 00:03:28,472 Thought you were my new girl. 105 00:03:28,473 --> 00:03:29,773 She was going to stop by 106 00:03:29,774 --> 00:03:31,375 to help me pick the best pics from Europe 107 00:03:31,376 --> 00:03:32,776 to tag before class. 108 00:03:32,777 --> 00:03:35,779 She is such a character. 109 00:03:35,780 --> 00:03:38,115 You know, sometimes, I just can't get her off the phone. 110 00:03:38,116 --> 00:03:40,450 - You guys talk on the phone? - Like it's my job. 111 00:03:40,451 --> 00:03:41,918 Which it sort of is, 112 00:03:41,919 --> 00:03:43,486 since she's listed as my sister on Facebook. 113 00:03:43,487 --> 00:03:45,188 - So whatcha need? - Help. 114 00:03:45,189 --> 00:03:46,422 I've been put in Creative Writing 115 00:03:46,423 --> 00:03:47,924 - for my elective. - And? 116 00:03:47,925 --> 00:03:49,592 And I didn't sign up for it. 117 00:03:49,593 --> 00:03:51,394 - No, I did. - Why? 118 00:03:51,395 --> 00:03:52,695 Because it's an excellent class, 119 00:03:52,696 --> 00:03:56,299 and very hard to get into. 120 00:03:56,300 --> 00:03:58,767 Mr. Hart reads a lot of submissions every year. 121 00:03:58,768 --> 00:04:00,135 And he's a very tough customer 122 00:04:00,136 --> 00:04:01,703 when it comes to the written word. 123 00:04:01,704 --> 00:04:04,472 - But I didn't write a word. - He read your blog. 124 00:04:04,473 --> 00:04:07,642 - But my blog is private. - Ha! Right. 125 00:04:07,643 --> 00:04:09,144 But when it wasn't, 126 00:04:09,145 --> 00:04:11,079 I printed out a copy or two. 127 00:04:11,080 --> 00:04:12,381 You know, for work and home. 128 00:04:12,382 --> 00:04:13,814 Sometimes I need a good, angsty soap 129 00:04:13,815 --> 00:04:15,149 to put me to sleep. 130 00:04:15,150 --> 00:04:16,918 Oh, and I might have sent one to my mom, 131 00:04:16,919 --> 00:04:19,720 who may or may not be Team Matty. 132 00:04:19,721 --> 00:04:22,790 You can tell her that he is now firmly on Team Jenna. 133 00:04:22,791 --> 00:04:24,358 Excellent word play. 134 00:04:24,359 --> 00:04:27,661 See, you are totally going to meet the challenges 135 00:04:27,662 --> 00:04:28,829 of Mr. Hart's class. 136 00:04:28,830 --> 00:04:31,965 I don't want a challenge. 137 00:04:31,966 --> 00:04:32,966 Wake up, Jenna. 138 00:04:32,967 --> 00:04:34,334 This is your junior year, 139 00:04:34,335 --> 00:04:38,004 and it is time to evolve, change. 140 00:04:38,005 --> 00:04:39,272 Fine, you want to be a wuss? 141 00:04:39,273 --> 00:04:40,706 I'll sign you up for something wimpy, 142 00:04:40,707 --> 00:04:41,874 like Drama. 143 00:04:41,875 --> 00:04:43,509 Going once... 144 00:04:43,510 --> 00:04:44,777 Maybe Valerie had a point. 145 00:04:44,778 --> 00:04:46,111 Going twice-- 146 00:04:46,112 --> 00:04:47,346 Maybe I needed a change. 147 00:04:47,347 --> 00:04:48,880 I'll stay in Creative Writing. 148 00:04:48,881 --> 00:04:51,817 Good. Now, you're gonna need this. 149 00:04:51,818 --> 00:04:53,752 Mr. Hart can be a real ball buster. 150 00:04:53,753 --> 00:04:55,520 Apparently, so could my conscience. 151 00:04:55,521 --> 00:04:57,823 It was time to see if my friendship with Tamara 152 00:04:57,824 --> 00:05:00,926 had changed along with her hair. 153 00:05:00,927 --> 00:05:02,293 I can't believe you cut it. 154 00:05:02,294 --> 00:05:03,661 I know. 155 00:05:03,662 --> 00:05:05,930 But after being abroad and seeing how the other half lives, 156 00:05:05,931 --> 00:05:07,665 I am forever a different person. 157 00:05:07,666 --> 00:05:09,000 Europeans are amazeballs. 158 00:05:09,001 --> 00:05:10,435 As in, stress the "balls," 159 00:05:10,436 --> 00:05:11,769 'cause that's what they smell like. 160 00:05:11,770 --> 00:05:13,304 But they call it "musk," 161 00:05:13,305 --> 00:05:15,706 which is just so sexy, you know? 162 00:05:15,707 --> 00:05:17,441 No. 163 00:05:17,442 --> 00:05:19,076 Well, it's hard to explain unless you've been there, 164 00:05:19,077 --> 00:05:22,412 but the Euros just have this je ne sais quoi. 165 00:05:22,413 --> 00:05:23,447 French. 166 00:05:23,448 --> 00:05:24,881 It's like an individuality thing, 167 00:05:24,882 --> 00:05:26,116 which is the mantra of this year. 168 00:05:26,117 --> 00:05:27,384 I want to be original. 169 00:05:27,385 --> 00:05:28,585 And although I'm not brave enough 170 00:05:28,586 --> 00:05:29,919 to roll without roll-on, 171 00:05:29,920 --> 00:05:30,920 I thought that changing the flair of my hair 172 00:05:30,921 --> 00:05:32,356 was the next best thing. 173 00:05:32,357 --> 00:05:34,290 So you really put a lot of thought into it. 174 00:05:34,291 --> 00:05:35,557 Actually, there was no thought. 175 00:05:35,558 --> 00:05:36,859 It was totally impulsive. 176 00:05:36,860 --> 00:05:38,327 That's why I love the Spaniards. 177 00:05:38,328 --> 00:05:41,097 Everything is so sera sera, you know? 178 00:05:41,098 --> 00:05:42,098 Not really. 179 00:05:42,099 --> 00:05:43,599 Well, if you did know, 180 00:05:43,600 --> 00:05:45,534 you know know that they are a people of spontaneity, 181 00:05:45,535 --> 00:05:47,769 which is also something that I want to embrace. 182 00:05:47,770 --> 00:05:50,338 I am letting go of having to define things in my life, 183 00:05:50,339 --> 00:05:53,241 like my style or my relationship. 184 00:05:53,242 --> 00:05:54,709 I don't need to DTR anymore. 185 00:05:54,710 --> 00:05:56,144 But I still did, 186 00:05:56,145 --> 00:05:57,645 and I needed to know if we were still besties. 187 00:05:57,646 --> 00:05:59,014 Which is really cool, and I actually have 188 00:05:59,015 --> 00:06:00,382 a lot of questions about that, 189 00:06:00,383 --> 00:06:01,582 because there's something I want to share. 190 00:06:01,583 --> 00:06:04,685 What's happening? 191 00:06:04,686 --> 00:06:05,919 Walk with me. 192 00:06:05,920 --> 00:06:07,888 I think I need support. 193 00:06:07,889 --> 00:06:09,023 And a tampon. 194 00:06:09,024 --> 00:06:10,757 Aunt to the flow. 195 00:06:10,758 --> 00:06:11,992 You finally got it? 196 00:06:11,993 --> 00:06:13,427 - Yes. - And I did, too. 197 00:06:13,428 --> 00:06:16,397 I was getting that I was being sidelined... 198 00:06:16,398 --> 00:06:17,498 and left behind. 199 00:06:17,499 --> 00:06:20,667 Ming, this is sotres magnifique. 200 00:06:20,668 --> 00:06:21,834 You're a woman. 201 00:06:21,835 --> 00:06:23,069 Hooray. 202 00:06:23,070 --> 00:06:25,505 And we're all cycling together. 203 00:06:25,506 --> 00:06:27,907 The Italians call it simpatico. 204 00:06:27,908 --> 00:06:29,208 Or maybe it was the Spanish. 205 00:06:29,209 --> 00:06:30,410 Either way, someone cute said it. 206 00:06:30,411 --> 00:06:31,210 Here. 207 00:06:31,211 --> 00:06:32,478 It's not my time. 208 00:06:32,479 --> 00:06:34,113 Oh, Europe must have thrown us off. 209 00:06:34,114 --> 00:06:36,282 Europe wasn't the only thing throwing us off. 210 00:06:36,283 --> 00:06:38,183 Our lack of connection was, too. 211 00:06:38,184 --> 00:06:39,717 Suddenly, my stomach felt... 212 00:06:39,718 --> 00:06:42,620 ...unsettled. 213 00:06:51,230 --> 00:06:53,197 That was bizarro ungaro. 214 00:06:55,800 --> 00:06:57,768 - What'd I just miss? - Sadie. 215 00:06:57,769 --> 00:06:58,969 Someone stole her tongue. 216 00:06:58,970 --> 00:07:00,938 And replaced it with a bun... 217 00:07:00,939 --> 00:07:02,106 in the oven. 218 00:07:02,107 --> 00:07:03,374 Rumor has it, she's pregnant. 219 00:07:03,375 --> 00:07:05,876 Change was everywhere, even for Sadie. 220 00:07:05,877 --> 00:07:07,378 And apparently, the entire school 221 00:07:07,379 --> 00:07:09,845 was trying to confirm the father of the sperm. 222 00:07:09,846 --> 00:07:12,115 Ricky Schwartz. It's his. 223 00:07:12,116 --> 00:07:14,117 What the hell am I supposed to do 224 00:07:14,118 --> 00:07:16,119 with Ricky's credit card? 225 00:07:16,120 --> 00:07:17,620 He said to buy something nice, anything you want. 226 00:07:17,621 --> 00:07:18,654 He loves you. 227 00:07:18,655 --> 00:07:20,823 How many times do I have to tell you 228 00:07:20,824 --> 00:07:23,093 to tell him we're done? 229 00:07:23,094 --> 00:07:25,094 I have bigger fish to fry than him. 230 00:07:25,095 --> 00:07:26,928 Are you going to eat your pickle? 231 00:07:26,929 --> 00:07:28,697 You're eating a lot. 232 00:07:28,698 --> 00:07:30,099 - So? - You miss him. 233 00:07:30,100 --> 00:07:31,567 I know he misses you. 234 00:07:31,568 --> 00:07:32,834 That's why he came in to get froyo for you 235 00:07:32,835 --> 00:07:33,802 every day at my shop. 236 00:07:33,803 --> 00:07:34,936 It was a waste. 237 00:07:34,937 --> 00:07:37,506 Like his life. 238 00:07:37,507 --> 00:07:39,641 But now you have a life that isn't a waste. 239 00:07:39,642 --> 00:07:41,509 - What? - Baby-- Sadie. 240 00:07:41,510 --> 00:07:42,843 He's trying to make it up to you, 241 00:07:42,844 --> 00:07:44,278 and I don't know what to tell him 242 00:07:44,279 --> 00:07:45,513 every time that he cries. 243 00:07:45,514 --> 00:07:48,116 Tell him to die. 244 00:07:48,117 --> 00:07:50,184 God, I need to puke. 245 00:07:50,185 --> 00:07:51,285 That's your lunch? 246 00:07:51,286 --> 00:07:52,720 The French keep it light, 247 00:07:52,721 --> 00:07:54,388 which is why they can eat whatever they want. 248 00:07:54,389 --> 00:07:55,956 It is all about moderation. 249 00:07:55,957 --> 00:07:58,057 What Tamara needed to do was moderate the Euro brag. 250 00:07:58,058 --> 00:07:59,392 Where's Ming? 251 00:07:59,393 --> 00:08:00,693 She's eating with the mafia today. 252 00:08:00,694 --> 00:08:02,195 She's trying to reconnect with them, 253 00:08:02,196 --> 00:08:03,196 since she's been gone all summer. 254 00:08:03,197 --> 00:08:04,797 Speaking of reconnecting, 255 00:08:04,798 --> 00:08:06,099 there's actually something that I wanted to tell you. 256 00:08:06,100 --> 00:08:08,401 - TT. - Jacques. 257 00:08:15,242 --> 00:08:16,542 - Pixelize us? - Pixelize us? 258 00:08:16,543 --> 00:08:18,144 Mm. 259 00:08:20,280 --> 00:08:22,114 Oh, not my fave. 260 00:08:22,115 --> 00:08:23,549 Show Jenna our selects from the trip, 261 00:08:23,550 --> 00:08:25,717 and see which ones she likes best. 262 00:08:25,718 --> 00:08:27,085 Uhh. 263 00:08:30,389 --> 00:08:32,056 It would be hard to choose. 264 00:08:32,057 --> 00:08:34,325 Personally, I think the one in front of the Trevi Fountain 265 00:08:34,326 --> 00:08:35,893 encapsulates the whole experience. 266 00:08:35,894 --> 00:08:37,662 That's the one we should use for the profile pic 267 00:08:37,663 --> 00:08:38,762 on our page. 268 00:08:38,763 --> 00:08:39,996 Wait, "our" page? 269 00:08:39,997 --> 00:08:41,165 - We created our own Facebook page. - We created our own Facebook page. 270 00:08:45,036 --> 00:08:46,370 - Je t'aime. - Je t'aime. 271 00:08:49,474 --> 00:08:51,441 Jacques, we're being rude. 272 00:08:51,442 --> 00:08:53,677 Jenna was just about to tell us something. 273 00:08:53,678 --> 00:08:54,743 - Tell us. - Tell us. 274 00:08:54,744 --> 00:08:56,345 "Us" was not who I wanted to tell. 275 00:08:56,346 --> 00:08:58,481 I'm in Creative Writing. 276 00:08:58,482 --> 00:08:59,348 With Mr. Hart? 277 00:08:59,349 --> 00:09:00,983 Ugh. He's a sadist. 278 00:09:00,984 --> 00:09:03,352 But not you. You're a lover. 279 00:09:03,353 --> 00:09:07,290 - Oh, mi amor. Je t'aime. - Je t'aime. 280 00:09:07,291 --> 00:09:08,558 I was starting to feel floored 281 00:09:08,559 --> 00:09:10,458 by how much I was ignored. 282 00:09:10,459 --> 00:09:12,960 But if flying under the radar was my new forte, 283 00:09:12,961 --> 00:09:16,598 then being invisible was going to have its benefits in class. 284 00:09:18,434 --> 00:09:20,268 You! 285 00:09:20,269 --> 00:09:21,956 Who the hell do you think you are? 286 00:09:24,925 --> 00:09:26,226 What do you mean? 287 00:09:26,227 --> 00:09:29,095 I mean, who are you? 288 00:09:29,096 --> 00:09:30,230 A student in your class. 289 00:09:30,231 --> 00:09:32,332 Wrong. Only I can assess that. 290 00:09:32,333 --> 00:09:36,336 Okay, everybody look to your left. 291 00:09:36,337 --> 00:09:38,338 Now everybody look to your right. 292 00:09:38,339 --> 00:09:39,638 The people sitting on either side of you 293 00:09:39,639 --> 00:09:41,974 will not be there at the end of the year. 294 00:09:41,975 --> 00:09:43,441 Yes? 295 00:09:43,442 --> 00:09:44,910 That would mean that no one would be in class. 296 00:09:44,911 --> 00:09:46,912 And that's exactly what happened in 2009. 297 00:09:46,913 --> 00:09:47,913 Yeah? 298 00:09:47,914 --> 00:09:48,914 Can I use the bathroom? 299 00:09:48,915 --> 00:09:49,915 Can you? Probably. 300 00:09:49,916 --> 00:09:51,183 May you? No. 301 00:09:51,184 --> 00:09:52,317 There's no breaks in this life. 302 00:09:52,318 --> 00:09:54,186 There's no breaks in this class. 303 00:09:54,187 --> 00:09:55,420 If you have to be human, 304 00:09:55,421 --> 00:09:56,787 do it before you walk through my door 305 00:09:56,788 --> 00:09:58,222 or after you leave. 306 00:09:58,223 --> 00:10:00,958 Because while my name might be Mr. Hart, 307 00:10:00,959 --> 00:10:02,093 I don't have one. 308 00:10:02,094 --> 00:10:04,862 Everybody understand? 309 00:10:04,863 --> 00:10:06,931 Now, who are my quitters? 310 00:10:06,932 --> 00:10:09,633 Leave now before you suffer the consequences of staying. 311 00:10:09,634 --> 00:10:12,202 You? Let's go. Go, go, go, go! 312 00:10:12,203 --> 00:10:15,005 Go, go, go! Go, go, go! 313 00:10:15,006 --> 00:10:21,011 Take her with you. 314 00:10:21,012 --> 00:10:22,379 Hi. 315 00:10:22,380 --> 00:10:24,881 Are you a crier? 316 00:10:24,882 --> 00:10:26,449 Yeah. 317 00:10:26,450 --> 00:10:28,217 You know what rule number one is? 318 00:10:28,218 --> 00:10:29,418 There's no crying in this class! 319 00:10:29,419 --> 00:10:31,186 Now go! Go, go, go, go, go! 320 00:10:31,187 --> 00:10:33,188 Go, go, go, go, go, go, go! 321 00:10:40,830 --> 00:10:45,366 For everyone else who's here, let's get down to brass tacks. 322 00:10:45,367 --> 00:10:47,402 You all think you know who you are. 323 00:10:47,403 --> 00:10:49,337 I don't care who you are. 324 00:10:49,338 --> 00:10:52,941 I want to know, 325 00:10:52,942 --> 00:10:58,579 who do you want to be? 326 00:10:58,580 --> 00:11:01,714 Now, some of you may think that you're good writers, 327 00:11:01,715 --> 00:11:03,083 'cause you write witty little musings 328 00:11:03,084 --> 00:11:05,452 about taking a dump on your Facebook wall, 329 00:11:05,453 --> 00:11:11,058 or you whine about your feelings on your blog. 330 00:11:12,793 --> 00:11:16,395 That is not being a writer. 331 00:11:16,396 --> 00:11:20,466 Writing is about conquering your fucking fears. 332 00:11:20,467 --> 00:11:22,601 It's about putting onto paper 333 00:11:22,602 --> 00:11:28,274 the thing that you are most afraid to share. 334 00:11:29,642 --> 00:11:31,977 Now, for your first assignment, 335 00:11:31,978 --> 00:11:34,346 I want you all to write about your greatest fear. 336 00:11:34,347 --> 00:11:36,014 And like the little pussies you are, 337 00:11:36,015 --> 00:11:38,950 don't worry about putting your name on it. 338 00:11:38,951 --> 00:11:40,952 Just write it down. 339 00:11:42,721 --> 00:11:44,822 Okay, before we dissect all this bullshit, 340 00:11:44,823 --> 00:11:47,625 I need you guys to look at those release forms I passed out. 341 00:11:47,626 --> 00:11:48,825 I want you to bring those home tonight, 342 00:11:48,826 --> 00:11:50,361 get your parents to sign them, _ 343 00:11:50,362 --> 00:11:52,296 or don't come back. _ 344 00:11:52,297 --> 00:11:54,031 - This guy's a trip. - And a nut. 345 00:11:54,032 --> 00:11:56,000 Maybe my parents would forgo their permission 346 00:11:56,001 --> 00:11:58,168 so I could be released to take drama instead. 347 00:11:58,169 --> 00:12:00,971 Okay, so let's see what kind of losers we have this year. 348 00:12:00,972 --> 00:12:02,206 "I'm afraid of failing." 349 00:12:02,207 --> 00:12:03,740 Well, you don't have to be afraid anymore, 350 00:12:03,741 --> 00:12:04,741 'cause if that's the best you got, 351 00:12:04,742 --> 00:12:05,942 you've already failed. 352 00:12:05,943 --> 00:12:08,879 Get out of my class. 353 00:12:08,880 --> 00:12:10,046 Next one. 354 00:12:10,047 --> 00:12:12,849 "I'm afraid of my suicidal thoughts." 355 00:12:12,850 --> 00:12:17,053 Do we have a potential Hemingway in the class? 356 00:12:17,054 --> 00:12:18,187 Probably not. 357 00:12:18,188 --> 00:12:19,623 Oh, here's a nice one. 358 00:12:19,624 --> 00:12:24,359 "I'm afraid I masturbate too much." 359 00:12:24,360 --> 00:12:26,795 You do. Don't be so obvious. 360 00:12:26,796 --> 00:12:29,331 "I'm debating my fear of life and death, 361 00:12:29,332 --> 00:12:33,869 and wondering if it should be my choice." 362 00:12:33,870 --> 00:12:36,204 I guess we have a lot of suicidal tendencies here, huh? 363 00:12:36,205 --> 00:12:37,872 Which might be a good thing, 364 00:12:37,873 --> 00:12:40,041 if you're as cliche as your fears. 365 00:12:40,042 --> 00:12:43,210 Now, does anyone want to go for the gold 366 00:12:43,211 --> 00:12:45,446 and really own your fears? 367 00:12:45,447 --> 00:12:47,515 Ah, my first suck up. And you are? 368 00:12:47,516 --> 00:12:48,750 Collin. 369 00:12:48,751 --> 00:12:50,184 I'm not admitting to anything. 370 00:12:50,185 --> 00:12:51,886 I just wanted to point out that you were wrong 371 00:12:51,887 --> 00:12:53,521 about the one that's debating life and death 372 00:12:53,522 --> 00:12:55,589 and whether it should be a choice. 373 00:12:55,590 --> 00:12:58,359 That's not about suicide. 374 00:12:58,360 --> 00:12:59,993 So what's it about, Professor? 375 00:12:59,994 --> 00:13:03,130 Being pregnant. 376 00:13:05,567 --> 00:13:07,935 For once, I felt a connection to Sadie. 377 00:13:07,936 --> 00:13:09,069 If the rumors were true, 378 00:13:09,070 --> 00:13:10,903 she was about to be branded and left behind 379 00:13:10,904 --> 00:13:13,706 as her friends moved in a different life direction, 380 00:13:13,707 --> 00:13:14,707 like me. 381 00:13:14,708 --> 00:13:15,708 Sadie? 382 00:13:15,709 --> 00:13:17,043 Yeah? 383 00:13:17,044 --> 00:13:19,546 I just want to say that whatever's going on, 384 00:13:19,547 --> 00:13:22,215 just know that the universe doesn't give us 385 00:13:22,216 --> 00:13:23,483 what we can't handle. 386 00:13:23,484 --> 00:13:26,385 - Really? - Absolutely. 387 00:13:26,386 --> 00:13:28,720 What do you know about life, Jenna? 388 00:13:28,721 --> 00:13:31,890 Nothing. You've experienced nothing. 389 00:13:31,891 --> 00:13:33,825 All you know is how to braid your hair. 390 00:13:33,826 --> 00:13:36,027 So if you want to throw a pity party, 391 00:13:36,028 --> 00:13:37,596 do it for yourself. 392 00:13:37,597 --> 00:13:38,763 You're lame. 393 00:13:38,764 --> 00:13:42,500 And that is never going to change. 394 00:13:42,501 --> 00:13:45,903 Oh. You're welcome. 395 00:13:45,904 --> 00:13:48,244 So maybe Sadie was still the same. 396 00:13:48,245 --> 00:13:50,629 Or maybe it was the hormones. 397 00:13:51,640 --> 00:13:53,206 As requested, I have brought you home, 398 00:13:53,207 --> 00:13:55,175 and walked you to the door. 399 00:13:55,176 --> 00:13:56,977 Do you want me to come in? 400 00:13:56,978 --> 00:13:59,446 No, you're going to be late for practice. 401 00:13:59,447 --> 00:14:00,981 Better go. 402 00:14:00,982 --> 00:14:04,785 Then you're going to have to give me back my hand. 403 00:14:04,786 --> 00:14:05,786 Everything okay? 404 00:14:05,787 --> 00:14:06,787 Yeah. 405 00:14:06,788 --> 00:14:09,522 No. It's been a weird day. 406 00:14:09,523 --> 00:14:11,691 I'm starting to feel like I made a mistake 407 00:14:11,692 --> 00:14:12,958 not going away this summer. 408 00:14:12,959 --> 00:14:14,093 Who needs Europe 409 00:14:14,094 --> 00:14:15,828 when you could have the same experience 410 00:14:15,829 --> 00:14:20,566 buying a "Beer of the World" sampler at Trader Joe's? 411 00:14:20,567 --> 00:14:22,134 I just feel like a different person, 412 00:14:22,135 --> 00:14:24,235 and I'm scared. 413 00:14:24,236 --> 00:14:25,370 Of what? 414 00:14:25,371 --> 00:14:28,373 Being alone, forgotten. 415 00:14:28,374 --> 00:14:32,477 Hey, you are never going to be alone. 416 00:14:32,478 --> 00:14:35,814 Okay? You have me. Mm-hmm. 417 00:14:35,815 --> 00:14:39,150 - Never say never. - Never. 418 00:14:39,151 --> 00:14:41,752 Mom, I'll call you later. Jenna just got home. 419 00:14:41,753 --> 00:14:45,289 Yes, I promise not to wrinkle my forehead anymore. 420 00:14:45,290 --> 00:14:48,392 No, I am not wrinkling it now. 421 00:14:48,393 --> 00:14:51,462 Jenna, am I wrinkling my forehead? 422 00:14:51,463 --> 00:14:52,863 Mm-hmm. 423 00:14:52,864 --> 00:14:55,699 Jenna said no. Love you, bye. 424 00:14:55,700 --> 00:15:00,036 Your nana is the one who makes me wrinkle my forehead. 425 00:15:00,037 --> 00:15:01,471 Uh, where are you going? 426 00:15:01,472 --> 00:15:02,905 I want to hear about your day. 427 00:15:02,906 --> 00:15:05,608 - Not much to tell. - But you're a junior. 428 00:15:05,609 --> 00:15:07,777 Didn't it feel even a little bit special? 429 00:15:07,778 --> 00:15:09,346 Nope. 430 00:15:09,347 --> 00:15:10,513 How's Tamara? 431 00:15:10,514 --> 00:15:11,814 Did she have a good time in Europe? 432 00:15:11,815 --> 00:15:12,914 I guess. 433 00:15:12,915 --> 00:15:14,182 We didn't really get a chance to talk. 434 00:15:14,183 --> 00:15:15,484 I take that back. 435 00:15:15,485 --> 00:15:17,353 We had a couple conversations, 436 00:15:17,354 --> 00:15:19,020 but they were pretty one-sided. 437 00:15:19,021 --> 00:15:20,456 She looks good, so-- 438 00:15:20,457 --> 00:15:22,858 That's all that happened today? 439 00:15:22,859 --> 00:15:26,027 There is a girl in my class who might be pregnant. 440 00:15:28,731 --> 00:15:31,766 Do I know this girl? 441 00:15:31,767 --> 00:15:33,401 Yeah. 442 00:15:33,402 --> 00:15:34,769 Do I like her? 443 00:15:34,770 --> 00:15:39,073 Well, it depends on the day. 444 00:15:39,074 --> 00:15:41,909 Well, you should be nice to her. 445 00:15:41,910 --> 00:15:43,677 A girl in that situation 446 00:15:43,678 --> 00:15:45,512 needs all the friends she can get. 447 00:15:45,513 --> 00:15:47,914 - Can I go now? - Mm-hmm. 448 00:15:53,214 --> 00:15:54,977 _ 449 00:16:05,399 --> 00:16:07,367 You must have been reading my mind. 450 00:16:07,368 --> 00:16:08,768 I was just about to call you. 451 00:16:08,769 --> 00:16:10,169 Really? 'Cause I've been worried. 452 00:16:10,170 --> 00:16:11,504 Me too. 453 00:16:11,505 --> 00:16:13,907 We have never gone this long without talking. 454 00:16:13,908 --> 00:16:16,375 Which is my fault, and I should have called sooner, but-- 455 00:16:16,376 --> 00:16:17,742 - He's not into me. - What? 456 00:16:17,743 --> 00:16:20,345 It's been three hours. 457 00:16:20,346 --> 00:16:21,513 Jake and I are in constant contact, 458 00:16:21,514 --> 00:16:22,747 unless we're sleeping. 459 00:16:22,748 --> 00:16:23,882 Matty must have said something to you. 460 00:16:23,883 --> 00:16:26,051 Tell me. I am a big girl. 461 00:16:27,253 --> 00:16:31,123 Hold that thought. 462 00:16:31,990 --> 00:16:34,392 I am such a geek of a freak. 463 00:16:34,393 --> 00:16:35,592 It's Jake. Call you later. 464 00:16:35,593 --> 00:16:38,495 Oka-- uh... 465 00:16:38,496 --> 00:16:39,897 bye. 466 00:16:44,869 --> 00:16:46,837 With so many things changing, 467 00:16:46,838 --> 00:16:48,939 some things were still the same. 468 00:16:48,940 --> 00:16:50,706 Once again, I was blogging, 469 00:16:50,707 --> 00:16:53,977 or whining, if you will, about my woes. 470 00:16:53,978 --> 00:16:56,646 But there was something that I didn't want to admit, 471 00:16:56,647 --> 00:16:58,681 and yet, desperate to share. 472 00:16:58,682 --> 00:17:01,184 It had nothing to do with forgetting my friends 473 00:17:01,185 --> 00:17:02,385 or them forgetting me. 474 00:17:02,386 --> 00:17:05,087 It was something forgotten one summer night, 475 00:17:05,088 --> 00:17:08,857 a momentary mistake that I had filed under denial, 476 00:17:08,858 --> 00:17:11,660 a secret that could change everything. 477 00:17:11,661 --> 00:17:14,563 Because I was the one debating a fear 478 00:17:14,564 --> 00:17:16,131 of life and death, 479 00:17:16,132 --> 00:17:20,368 and I was the one wondering if it should be my choice. 480 00:17:20,369 --> 00:17:22,927 Because I didn't know what I would choose... 481 00:17:23,487 --> 00:17:25,719 if I was pregnant. 482 00:17:27,147 --> 00:17:30,116 - Did the condom break? - Well, um-- 483 00:17:30,117 --> 00:17:34,319 Did you even use one? 484 00:17:34,320 --> 00:17:36,488 No. It was just one time. 485 00:17:36,489 --> 00:17:39,124 It only takes one time. 486 00:17:39,125 --> 00:17:40,191 I wasn't thinking. 487 00:17:40,192 --> 00:17:42,160 I was just caught up... 488 00:17:42,161 --> 00:17:45,998 In the moment? I know. 489 00:17:45,999 --> 00:17:47,666 I've been there. 490 00:17:52,504 --> 00:17:53,971 I'm too nervous. I can't read it. 491 00:17:53,972 --> 00:17:55,372 Okay, don't be afraid. 492 00:17:55,373 --> 00:17:57,207 If you're pregnant, chances are, 493 00:17:57,208 --> 00:17:58,876 you'll only be nauseous for a month. 494 00:17:58,877 --> 00:18:00,711 - Ugh, a month? - Or three. 495 00:18:00,712 --> 00:18:02,980 But the delivery happens lickety-split. 496 00:18:02,981 --> 00:18:05,516 Unless it gets stuck in your underdeveloped hips, 497 00:18:05,517 --> 00:18:07,751 and then it could take much longer. 498 00:18:07,752 --> 00:18:09,285 But you'll only have to sit on a donut pillow 499 00:18:09,286 --> 00:18:10,286 for a couple of weeks, 500 00:18:10,287 --> 00:18:11,955 which is totally okay, 501 00:18:11,956 --> 00:18:15,291 because you probably won't want to eat solids for a while. 502 00:18:15,292 --> 00:18:18,628 It's hard to poop. 503 00:18:18,629 --> 00:18:22,898 - Oh, God. - But a baby is so amazing. 504 00:18:22,899 --> 00:18:24,132 Once you get some sleep. 505 00:18:24,133 --> 00:18:25,568 God, I think the sleep deprivation 506 00:18:25,569 --> 00:18:26,835 was worse than the delivery. 507 00:18:26,836 --> 00:18:28,571 I couldn't see straight for months. 508 00:18:28,572 --> 00:18:29,972 I really shouldn't have been driving 509 00:18:29,973 --> 00:18:31,339 with an infant in the car. 510 00:18:31,340 --> 00:18:33,341 Mom, you are not helping. 511 00:18:33,342 --> 00:18:34,643 I'm sorry, honey. 512 00:18:34,644 --> 00:18:35,844 Don't panic. 513 00:18:35,845 --> 00:18:37,612 If this is history repeating itself, 514 00:18:37,613 --> 00:18:40,381 then I will support whatever you decide, 515 00:18:40,382 --> 00:18:44,052 and we will get through this together. 516 00:18:44,053 --> 00:18:47,555 There is no decision, mom. 517 00:18:47,556 --> 00:18:50,458 I'm here because of you. 518 00:18:50,459 --> 00:18:53,327 And if this is history repeating itself, 519 00:18:53,328 --> 00:18:58,699 then this baby is going to be here because of me. 520 00:19:01,002 --> 00:19:02,303 Are you going to pass out? 521 00:19:02,304 --> 00:19:04,205 I might. 522 00:19:04,206 --> 00:19:07,908 Oh, my God. Oh, my God. 523 00:19:07,909 --> 00:19:11,211 Oh, my God. 524 00:19:11,212 --> 00:19:12,645 You know what's funny? 525 00:19:12,646 --> 00:19:13,646 What? 526 00:19:13,647 --> 00:19:15,482 Last year, after you found out 527 00:19:15,483 --> 00:19:17,283 that I wrote the letter, 528 00:19:17,284 --> 00:19:19,018 I was worried that once you left home, 529 00:19:19,019 --> 00:19:20,019 you would never come back. 530 00:19:20,020 --> 00:19:23,022 And now, with a baby, 531 00:19:23,023 --> 00:19:24,624 you'll never leave. 532 00:19:24,625 --> 00:19:25,691 Mom! 533 00:19:25,692 --> 00:19:26,691 I'm kidding. 534 00:19:26,692 --> 00:19:28,527 You can leave any time you want. 535 00:19:28,528 --> 00:19:30,862 And I'll babysit. 536 00:19:30,863 --> 00:19:33,031 Oh, my God. 537 00:19:33,032 --> 00:19:36,768 We're having a baby? 538 00:19:38,838 --> 00:19:43,374 Okay. Okay. 539 00:19:43,375 --> 00:19:46,710 We are not having a baby. 540 00:19:46,711 --> 00:19:49,313 I'm not pregnant. 541 00:19:49,314 --> 00:19:50,648 I never said you were. 542 00:19:50,649 --> 00:19:52,183 Then why did your mother call me 543 00:19:52,184 --> 00:19:55,052 to recommend a good prenatal vitamin? 544 00:19:55,053 --> 00:19:58,255 Because you're going to have a baby... someday. 545 00:19:58,256 --> 00:19:59,856 Okay, I was worried. 546 00:19:59,857 --> 00:20:00,823 People have been talking, 547 00:20:00,824 --> 00:20:02,259 and you've been eating a lot, 548 00:20:02,260 --> 00:20:03,393 and throwing up, and-- 549 00:20:03,394 --> 00:20:04,761 And so what? 550 00:20:04,762 --> 00:20:06,929 I've been under a lot of stress 551 00:20:06,930 --> 00:20:08,198 and full of anxiety. 552 00:20:08,199 --> 00:20:09,899 - About Ricky? - No! 553 00:20:09,900 --> 00:20:12,202 Fuck Ricky. 554 00:20:12,203 --> 00:20:14,470 I'm broke, okay? 555 00:20:14,471 --> 00:20:16,138 My parents lost all their money, 556 00:20:16,139 --> 00:20:17,473 and if anyone finds out, 557 00:20:17,474 --> 00:20:21,677 I might have to go to another school. 558 00:20:21,678 --> 00:20:23,279 Do you want me to tell Ricky? 559 00:20:23,280 --> 00:20:26,715 Ricky is dead to me. 560 00:20:26,716 --> 00:20:28,651 That makes two of us. 561 00:20:28,652 --> 00:20:30,918 Jake and I DTR'd last night. 562 00:20:30,919 --> 00:20:33,988 I thought you weren't about defining anything this year. 563 00:20:33,989 --> 00:20:35,490 I was posturing. 564 00:20:35,491 --> 00:20:36,791 I am way too self-absorbed to be laissez-faire. 565 00:20:36,792 --> 00:20:38,592 And, honestly, I was just so afraid 566 00:20:38,593 --> 00:20:40,627 that Jake and I were never going to French outside of France 567 00:20:40,628 --> 00:20:42,963 that I was pretending I didn't need to be commit-legit. 568 00:20:42,964 --> 00:20:44,231 But who am I kidding? 569 00:20:44,232 --> 00:20:45,599 I was totes in secret spiral city 570 00:20:45,600 --> 00:20:47,234 until I knew nothing was going to change. 571 00:20:47,235 --> 00:20:48,468 I know the feeling. 572 00:20:48,469 --> 00:20:50,738 - "J," I'm sorry. - For what? 573 00:20:50,739 --> 00:20:52,239 I've been so up in my own grill 574 00:20:52,240 --> 00:20:53,807 I've been totally MIA from you. 575 00:20:53,808 --> 00:20:55,541 And I forgot to call you back last night. 576 00:20:55,542 --> 00:20:56,776 So tell me what you were going to say. 577 00:20:56,777 --> 00:20:58,712 - It's no big deal. - Tell me. 578 00:20:58,713 --> 00:20:59,946 Seriously, it was a false alarm. 579 00:20:59,947 --> 00:21:01,247 Tell me. 580 00:21:01,248 --> 00:21:02,481 Okay, but brace yourself, because-- 581 00:21:11,858 --> 00:21:14,259 It's awful, it's terrible, it's true. 582 00:21:14,260 --> 00:21:18,130 Ricky Schwartz es muerto. 583 00:21:18,131 --> 00:21:20,665 He's dead. 584 00:21:26,139 --> 00:21:28,239 Next, onAwkward... 585 00:21:28,240 --> 00:21:29,473 It's for a vigil, tonight. 586 00:21:29,474 --> 00:21:30,708 We're gonna pay tribute to Ricky. 587 00:21:30,709 --> 00:21:32,376 Or converse with the devil. 588 00:21:32,377 --> 00:21:33,611 Vigil? I love it. 589 00:21:33,612 --> 00:21:34,912 Matty was YOLOing. 590 00:21:34,913 --> 00:21:36,280 I'll just tell Matty about the scare, 591 00:21:36,281 --> 00:21:37,915 and we can be extra-careful. 592 00:21:37,916 --> 00:21:39,751 Everyone just needs to step off their sad bus 593 00:21:39,752 --> 00:21:41,284 while some of us are actually mourning. 594 00:21:41,285 --> 00:21:43,186 I'm not pregnant. Totally thought I was. 595 00:21:43,187 --> 00:21:44,404 But I'm not. 596 00:21:44,405 --> 00:21:46,451 So...