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Meredith: When my mother's
Alzheimer's got bad,
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I was going through her bills,
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and I found a notepad.
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Written on it were the words
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"Important... tell Meredith not to..."
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And that was it.
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She never finished that sentence.
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♪ ♪
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Tell Meredith not to what?
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Not to drink too much?
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Not to pet strange dogs?
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Not to give her heart away?
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Not to leave the sprinklers on?
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♪ ♪
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♪ I am short of breath
standing next to you ♪
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♪ ♪
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♪ I am out of my depth
at this altitude ♪
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♪ Like the world makes sense
from your window seat ♪
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♪ You are beautiful
like I've never seen ♪
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♪ Go ahead and laugh even if it hurts ♪
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♪ Go ahead and pull the pin ♪
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♪ What if we could risk
everything we have... ♪
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We didn't exactly talk a lot
in those days.
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- ♪ ...and just let our walls cave in? ♪
- I regret that. I wish we had.
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Maggie: I thought you said
you and Dr. Cohen
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- had clean margins in the mastectomy.
- Yeah, we did.
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But then, a spot showed up
on the latest scans
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alongside the chest wall here.
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- So you didn't.
- It could be nothing.
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Or it could be leftover cells
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that weren't taken out and kept growing.
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- Maggie!
- I'm sorry. I...
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[Sighs] Keep going.
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We don't know what it is, really,
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until we get in there.
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Yeah, I'll do a wide local excision,
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explore the area,
remove anything I find.
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We may need to do a muscle flap
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but simple.
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Tomorrow.
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No, we're thinking next week.
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No, it has to be tomorrow,
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The next day at the latest.
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We should let her get stronger first.
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She is strong.
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And we don't want it to spread
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Of course we don't,
but it's a big surgery, so...
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Yeah, I can handle it.
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I'm fine.
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I want the next surgery
as soon as you can do it.
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♪ You are beautiful
like I've never seen ♪
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♪ Go ahead and laugh, even if it hurts ♪
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♪ Go ahead and pull the pin ♪
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♪ What if we could risk
everything we have ♪
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♪ And just let our walls cave in? ♪
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♪ What if we could risk ♪
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- ♪ Everything we have ♪
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♪ And just let our walls cave in? ♪
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How'd it go?
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Oh. Thank you.
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[Breathes deeply] Okay, I think.
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Her radiation caused some fibrosis,
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which made things a little tricky.
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I would've preferred to have
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I wanted to wait two.
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Hmm.
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I'm sorry. I haven't followed up
on the... the thing.
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Dinner?
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It's not because I don't want to.
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It's just that I...
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Sure, I mean, you know, if...
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There's a lot going on.
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There is a lot going on.
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- It'll happen... sometime.
- ♪ Let our walls cave in ♪
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Sometime.
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I better get in there.
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♪ Let our walls cave in ♪
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[Insects chirping]
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- Diane: Boo.
- [Gasps] Oh! God.
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You can't sleep?
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Wide awake, all hours.
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This chair's the only place
my stomach and back
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can get comfortable, so...
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What are you doing up?
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I have three kids. I don't sleep.
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[Chuckles] Motherhood.
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[Chuckles]
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I always wanted more kids
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so Maggie could have
a sister or a brother.
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I was worried when she wanted
to move out here.
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She was happy in Boston,
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but... I'm really glad she found you.
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You said your stomach is bothering you?
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Damn it.
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Richard?
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What are you gonna say?
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Maggie: You're sure it's a met?
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It's right where the bile
drains from your liver,
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so that would explain your pain.
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You're saying I have another tumor?
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No. No, she's saying that cells
from the original tumor
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have traveled
and grown in another place.
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In my liver?
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- Yes.
- [Sighs] Maybe.
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So, I know this is a lot to take in.
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[Monitor beeping]
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So why don't the two of you,
um, take the night,
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and we can meet again in the morning
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and discuss it further, okay?
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We're here now.
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But I just meant that...
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Can you remove it laparoscopically?
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- What?
- Well, that would be better
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than an open procedure
at this point, right?
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Then we wouldn't have to stop
her chemo regimen,
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unless you have
a different surgical plan.
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Would you like to discuss this outside?
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No, no. We're discussing
my mother's treatment.
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- We can discuss it with her.
- Okay.
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Diane, typically
with aggressive cancers,
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we only operate where
the original tumor began...
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in this case, it was your breast.
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Unless the cancer spreads beyond
that, surgery is not curative.
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But it could prevent further
pain and complications,
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which there will be
if the met keeps growing
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or spreads even further.
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And we would work to prevent
that using other options.
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Sure, pump her with more chemo.
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Well, a second ago, you were worried
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about stopping her chemo.
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Just take out the met!
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You're asking me to perform
a procedure...
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You can barely see it on the scan.
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...that will not only cause her pain,
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but put her at risk
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- It's my mother!
- for many complications.
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I'm asking you to think beyond
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And I'm asking you to listen
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- who should know better...
- Oh, good God, enough!
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Both of you...
I can't even hear myself think.
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Mama, we just... we need one...
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Are you saying
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that you can't do the surgery
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- to remove the, um...
- The met.
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Can you do it?
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I can, but I'm saying that I won't
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because, in my professional opinion,
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I think it's a terrible idea.
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Meredith, if you won't do
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We'll find another surgeon who will.
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- No, it's not...
- No.
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Maggie, this is not
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Meredith, dear...
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I'm firing you.
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You're no longer one of my doctors.
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[Woman speaking indistinctly on P.A.]
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Thank you for meeting with me
this morning.
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I found something that...
it is called the BXP protocol,
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and it started at Gillman.
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They are experimenting
with humanized antibodies
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for late-stage cancer immunotherapy.
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A clinical trial.
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And it's successful?
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The trial's next phase
was rushed into approval
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due to favorable outcomes.
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And your mom meets the criteria?
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Once we remove that met that's
obstructing her bile duct,
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her liver enzymes will go down,
and she's in.
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Um, Meredith doesn't feel
that surgery is wise.
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Meredith is no longer on the case.
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And now that I know about this trial,
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there is even more reason
to do the surgery.
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And I'd like one of you to do it.
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- Oh.
- [Clears throat]
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You know, um,
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I think we should read up
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Mm-hmm.
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...and then come up with a plan.
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Yeah.
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Does that sound good to you?
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Yeah. Yeah, thanks.
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[Papers rustling]
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Does anyone think this is a good idea?
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- No.
- Not at all.
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All right, so we're together on that.
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So, I'll bring up, uh, Diane's chart.
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We'll pull together some other
research and get together,
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see what we can come up with, huh?
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You know what? I'd prefer to work alone.
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- [Thumps table]
- Me, too.
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No, no, no, no, guys,
that's not a good idea.
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[Sighs] Great.
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A biliary bypass wouldn't work,
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given the location and size of the met.
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Are you actually going to resect it?
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The met? I'm not going near that thing.
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No one would.
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Right now, I'm just trying to figure out
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how to lower her LFTs
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Did you consider stenting her?
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Mm, that's still surgery.
I mean, with her condition...
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But if it's done percutaneously,
under minimal sedation...
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Yeah, it could give her
long-term relief,
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hopefully avoiding re-intervention.
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And get her LFTs down.
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I like it.
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Well, it's better
than a complete bypass.
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That's true.
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Okay, good.
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[Whispers] I was never here.
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[Door opens, closes]
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[Wheels squeaking]
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How are her LFTs post-op? Any change?
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Well, the procedure worked.
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I relieved the obstruction 100%.
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- And her LFTs are trending down, yes.
- Mm-hmm.
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So she'll qualify for the trial.
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Yes, she qualifies for the trial.
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Really?!
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Oh, my God. That is amazing news!
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Ah! Thank you, Dr. Bailey,
for doing the procedure!
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Oh! I gotta call my contacts at Gillman.
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I... I got to go. All right, thank you.
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[Laughs]
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- Damn it.
- Bailey: Yep.
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No one wanted to mention
that we think that the trial
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is a completely terrible idea.
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You need to sit her down and let
her know what's going on.
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- Me? I'm not doing that!
- You're her friend.
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Who kept her mom's cancer
a secret from her.
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No, you're her dad. You do it.
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You're Diane's surgeon.
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- So was Avery.
- Oh, come on.
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You led the procedure
that brought her LFTs down
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and got her the trial
in the first place.
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A trial I never believed in.
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Yeah, well, you're the chief.
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Well, who's head of the board?
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- Now you care about that?
- Never mind.
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I'll do it.
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[Door opens]
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[Indistinct conversations]
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She's in the waiting room.
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[Knocks on door]
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Don't want to bother you.
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Oh, come in. Come in.
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[Chuckles]
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Oh. Maggie went to get me
some tea or something.
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Well, that's fine.
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You know, I wanted to chat...
262
00:11:24,142 --> 00:11:26,310
Well?
263
00:11:26,344 --> 00:11:28,212
...about the clinical trial.
264
00:11:28,246 --> 00:11:29,793
Did I get in?
265
00:11:30,448 --> 00:11:33,484
Well, yes, y-y-you will, but, listen.
266
00:11:33,518 --> 00:11:37,154
- There are some things that...
- Maggie will be so excited.
267
00:11:37,188 --> 00:11:39,756
She... She wants to start right away...
268
00:11:39,791 --> 00:11:41,925
the, um, the thingy.
269
00:11:41,960 --> 00:11:43,327
The protocol.
270
00:11:43,361 --> 00:11:45,095
- Protocol.
- Mm-hmm.
271
00:11:45,130 --> 00:11:47,297
Will you be doing the protocol?
272
00:11:47,332 --> 00:11:50,501
I want to make sure you have
the complete picture.
273
00:11:50,535 --> 00:11:52,803
[Monitor beeping]
274
00:11:52,837 --> 00:11:54,471
The trial is very aggressive.
275
00:11:54,506 --> 00:11:56,273
That's what we want, right?
276
00:11:56,307 --> 00:11:59,476
Yes, but, um...
277
00:11:59,511 --> 00:12:01,824
the toll it's gonna take on your body...
278
00:12:02,714 --> 00:12:04,114
it will be difficult.
279
00:12:04,149 --> 00:12:05,906
Extremely difficult.
280
00:12:06,384 --> 00:12:07,775
I know.
281
00:12:09,120 --> 00:12:12,623
But Maggie says it's a good idea.
282
00:12:12,657 --> 00:12:17,094
Diane, there's a reason
we don't let doctors
283
00:12:17,128 --> 00:12:19,240
treat members of their own family.
284
00:12:19,964 --> 00:12:22,766
Sometimes, the need
to help someone you love
285
00:12:22,800 --> 00:12:26,263
can... cloud your judgment.
286
00:12:27,472 --> 00:12:31,241
She wouldn't do anything
to make me worse.
287
00:12:32,844 --> 00:12:34,144
She's my daughter.
288
00:12:34,179 --> 00:12:36,280
Here we go. Hi!
289
00:12:36,314 --> 00:12:37,514
Oh. Hi.
290
00:12:37,549 --> 00:12:38,782
[Both chuckle]
291
00:12:38,816 --> 00:12:39,850
What's the matter? What's wrong?
292
00:12:39,884 --> 00:12:41,485
Oh, nothing.
293
00:12:41,519 --> 00:12:43,954
Everything's great, sweetie.
294
00:12:46,090 --> 00:12:47,391
Uh, you know what?
295
00:12:47,425 --> 00:12:48,825
I'm gonna let you get some rest,
296
00:12:48,860 --> 00:12:51,361
and, um, we'll talk tomorrow.
297
00:12:51,396 --> 00:12:53,197
I appreciate that.
298
00:12:53,231 --> 00:12:54,398
See you then.
299
00:12:54,432 --> 00:12:55,866
Okay.
300
00:12:59,370 --> 00:13:02,739
[Telephone rings in distance]
301
00:13:02,774 --> 00:13:04,975
[Indistinct conversation]
302
00:13:11,135 --> 00:13:13,115
- Yeah.
- Here you go, Ms. Pierce.
303
00:13:13,215 --> 00:13:15,616
Oh, wha... no need
for special treatment.
304
00:13:15,651 --> 00:13:18,319
I... I'm happy in the other chemo room,
305
00:13:18,353 --> 00:13:19,120
in the regular one.
306
00:13:19,154 --> 00:13:20,855
Right, Mom, it's a clinical trial
307
00:13:20,889 --> 00:13:22,623
so, um, they have to be able
308
00:13:22,658 --> 00:13:24,725
to control everything
in your environment...
309
00:13:24,760 --> 00:13:27,662
the room temperature,
your temperature... everything.
310
00:13:27,696 --> 00:13:28,896
Oh.
311
00:13:28,930 --> 00:13:30,865
I was going to ask Aurora
312
00:13:30,899 --> 00:13:33,734
if Lee finally passed his driver's test.
313
00:13:33,769 --> 00:13:36,504
- Who?
- Aurora, my chemo nurse.
314
00:13:36,538 --> 00:13:38,572
Her son Lee has failed it twice,
315
00:13:38,607 --> 00:13:41,475
and he was supposed to go
to the DMV today.
316
00:13:41,510 --> 00:13:42,310
Oh.
317
00:13:42,344 --> 00:13:44,679
Maggie, you work with these people.
318
00:13:44,713 --> 00:13:46,280
How do you not know this?
319
00:13:47,302 --> 00:13:48,369
Um.
320
00:13:48,550 --> 00:13:49,884
[Door closes]
321
00:13:49,918 --> 00:13:51,385
How we doing in here?
322
00:13:51,420 --> 00:13:53,888
- Oh, been making a fuss.
- [Laughter]
323
00:13:53,922 --> 00:13:58,559
Um, we will need you to sign these forms.
[Clears throat]
324
00:13:58,593 --> 00:13:59,994
All of these?
325
00:14:00,028 --> 00:14:03,097
Yeah, well,
the thing with clinical trials
326
00:14:03,131 --> 00:14:08,002
is they can list a million ways
your body might react,
327
00:14:08,036 --> 00:14:11,005
but the truth is they just don't know.
328
00:14:11,039 --> 00:14:12,661
That's why it's a trial.
329
00:14:13,575 --> 00:14:17,812
You need to be prepared for anything.
330
00:14:19,881 --> 00:14:21,248
Y... Here.
331
00:14:21,283 --> 00:14:22,950
Let me... Let me walk you through this.
332
00:14:22,984 --> 00:14:24,257
Um. Yeah.
333
00:14:25,287 --> 00:14:29,590
Um, so... so, what this says
334
00:14:29,624 --> 00:14:33,461
is you may experience
some nausea and vomiting.
335
00:14:33,495 --> 00:14:38,337
There's dehydration,
weakness, dizziness.
336
00:14:38,372 --> 00:14:40,234
There's fatigue...
337
00:14:40,268 --> 00:14:42,636
♪ God, it's late ♪
338
00:14:42,671 --> 00:14:45,706
♪ I'm feeling good, though ♪
339
00:14:45,741 --> 00:14:50,243
...night sweats, and chills...
340
00:14:50,846 --> 00:14:53,914
♪ Your hand fits nice inside mine ♪
341
00:14:53,949 --> 00:14:56,813
...skin irritation...
342
00:14:58,420 --> 00:15:00,533
wound infections...
343
00:15:01,356 --> 00:15:02,623
♪ Sun up ♪
344
00:15:02,657 --> 00:15:04,492
...extreme fluid
345
00:15:04,526 --> 00:15:06,994
- ♪ You're my morning glory ♪
- buildup.
346
00:15:07,028 --> 00:15:09,930
[Sighs]
347
00:15:09,965 --> 00:15:13,134
In short, it will get bad...
348
00:15:13,168 --> 00:15:15,169
- ♪ Be a lamb ♪
- ...then really bad.
349
00:15:15,203 --> 00:15:16,437
♪ Put on the coffee ♪
350
00:15:16,471 --> 00:15:19,173
And then, if it starts to work,
351
00:15:19,207 --> 00:15:24,111
hopefully you'll start
to get a little better.
352
00:15:24,146 --> 00:15:25,980
♪ I am awake now ♪
353
00:15:26,014 --> 00:15:28,749
This treatment is killing her
faster than the cancer.
354
00:15:28,784 --> 00:15:29,917
That's what Diane wants.
355
00:15:29,951 --> 00:15:31,656
You mean what Maggie wants.
356
00:15:33,374 --> 00:15:34,588
[Sighs]
357
00:15:34,623 --> 00:15:40,294
♪ My, how you relate to me ♪
358
00:15:43,031 --> 00:15:51,105
♪ I am awakened ♪
359
00:15:51,139 --> 00:15:52,840
Mom?
360
00:15:52,874 --> 00:15:54,275
Why aren't you resting?
361
00:15:54,309 --> 00:15:57,812
Oh, I woke up hours ago feeling great.
362
00:15:57,846 --> 00:15:59,213
I'll get that for you.
363
00:15:59,247 --> 00:16:01,982
So, I watched the news,
did a little laundry.
364
00:16:02,017 --> 00:16:04,652
Then I noticed that the pantry
was a little cluttered,
365
00:16:04,686 --> 00:16:06,287
so I reorganized it.
366
00:16:06,321 --> 00:16:07,688
Mom, you don't have to do that!
367
00:16:07,722 --> 00:16:08,856
Well, I did.
368
00:16:08,890 --> 00:16:11,725
And you got up at the perfect time.
369
00:16:11,760 --> 00:16:13,127
It's lasagna time.
370
00:16:13,161 --> 00:16:14,361
Lasagna?
371
00:16:14,396 --> 00:16:16,730
You're going to make my lasagna.
372
00:16:16,765 --> 00:16:17,598
Oh, no, Mom.
373
00:16:17,632 --> 00:16:19,533
I-I don't... I... That's your thing.
374
00:16:19,568 --> 00:16:21,068
[Laughing] I don't know how to make it.
375
00:16:21,102 --> 00:16:23,270
Well, you need to learn.
376
00:16:24,039 --> 00:16:25,573
[Coffee pot thumps lightly]
377
00:16:25,607 --> 00:16:27,308
No. Stop it.
378
00:16:27,342 --> 00:16:28,876
I don't want you passing things down.
379
00:16:28,910 --> 00:16:30,196
That's not...
380
00:16:30,846 --> 00:16:32,313
I-I don't like that.
381
00:16:32,347 --> 00:16:33,547
Oh, that's not why.
382
00:16:33,582 --> 00:16:37,084
It's just that I have decided
I don't have to do this anymore.
383
00:16:37,118 --> 00:16:39,551
I am a woman of a certain age,
384
00:16:39,585 --> 00:16:43,810
and I have earned the right
to sit down, put my feet up,
385
00:16:43,844 --> 00:16:46,155
and let you cook for me.
386
00:16:46,428 --> 00:16:47,595
[Sighs] Mom.
387
00:16:47,629 --> 00:16:49,897
And you're not gonna like it
when I'm gone
388
00:16:49,931 --> 00:16:52,466
and you're missing my lasagna.
389
00:16:53,768 --> 00:16:55,669
Invite your friends.
390
00:16:55,704 --> 00:16:57,004
It'll be fun.
391
00:16:57,038 --> 00:17:00,441
Okay, I just need to go, um,
take a shower.
392
00:17:00,475 --> 00:17:02,576
Unh-unh, I don't think so.
393
00:17:02,611 --> 00:17:04,378
- [Snaps fingers]
- Grab that flour.
394
00:17:04,412 --> 00:17:05,817
We're doing this now?
395
00:17:05,851 --> 00:17:07,014
Okay.
396
00:17:08,083 --> 00:17:09,350
It's awesome.
397
00:17:09,384 --> 00:17:11,018
[Doorbell rings]
398
00:17:11,052 --> 00:17:13,521
[Indistinct conversations]
399
00:17:16,791 --> 00:17:18,359
Hi! Why are you all here at once?
400
00:17:18,393 --> 00:17:19,393
- Hi!
- Uh, we... we carpooled.
401
00:17:19,427 --> 00:17:20,528
We thought it'd be fun.
402
00:17:20,562 --> 00:17:21,462
Jackson: Yeah, Webber drove us.
403
00:17:21,496 --> 00:17:22,396
And we have wine. You guys,
404
00:17:22,430 --> 00:17:24,632
she made me make
the noodles from scratch.
405
00:17:24,666 --> 00:17:26,567
You know you can buy noodles
in a box, right?
406
00:17:26,601 --> 00:17:27,935
♪ ♪
407
00:17:27,969 --> 00:17:30,271
[Laughing] Wait, hold on. You were 2?
408
00:17:30,305 --> 00:17:31,639
Diane: 2 years old.
409
00:17:31,673 --> 00:17:35,142
And when I say she was reading,
it was reading.
410
00:17:35,176 --> 00:17:37,878
Maggie was not sounding out
words or anything.
411
00:17:37,913 --> 00:17:39,113
Okay, Mom.
412
00:17:39,147 --> 00:17:39,813
And you didn't teach her?
413
00:17:39,848 --> 00:17:41,715
Oh, nobody could teach her.
414
00:17:41,750 --> 00:17:44,084
My baby was a genius.
415
00:17:44,119 --> 00:17:45,435
That brain of hers...
416
00:17:45,470 --> 00:17:48,088
Okay. That's... Thanks, Mom.
417
00:17:48,123 --> 00:17:50,157
I have you to thank for that, I guess.
418
00:17:50,191 --> 00:17:52,593
Well [chuckles] I don't know about that.
419
00:17:52,627 --> 00:17:54,390
Oh, and your mother.
420
00:17:54,963 --> 00:17:58,399
I'd like to pay my respects to Ellis.
421
00:17:58,433 --> 00:18:00,568
I'm here, I'm staying in her house,
422
00:18:00,602 --> 00:18:02,970
and it's the right thing to do.
423
00:18:03,004 --> 00:18:05,272
That's very nice,
but you don't need to do that.
424
00:18:05,307 --> 00:18:07,141
Oh, but I want to.
425
00:18:07,175 --> 00:18:08,909
Where is she buried?
426
00:18:08,944 --> 00:18:12,680
♪ Then it takes you high
to the other side ♪
427
00:18:12,714 --> 00:18:16,150
♪ Turn on, tune it, drop off ♪
428
00:18:16,184 --> 00:18:18,452
- Um...
- ♪ Devil's sugar ♪
429
00:18:18,486 --> 00:18:20,008
- A place where she loved...
- We dumped her ashes
430
00:18:20,033 --> 00:18:21,021
down a scrub sink in OR 2.
431
00:18:21,056 --> 00:18:23,023
...by the water.
432
00:18:23,058 --> 00:18:26,760
[Insects chirping]
433
00:18:26,795 --> 00:18:28,662
[Clears throat]
434
00:18:28,697 --> 00:18:30,097
Oh, my God!
435
00:18:30,131 --> 00:18:31,865
Well, it was her favorite OR,
436
00:18:31,900 --> 00:18:34,969
and it seemed like
the right thing at the time.
437
00:18:37,238 --> 00:18:39,119
We're terrible people.
438
00:18:39,975 --> 00:18:41,008
[Chuckles]
439
00:18:41,042 --> 00:18:43,677
[Laughs]
440
00:18:46,381 --> 00:18:49,316
[Laughter]
441
00:18:50,719 --> 00:18:52,286
I love it!
442
00:18:52,320 --> 00:18:54,755
[Laughing] I love it!
443
00:19:00,562 --> 00:19:03,197
[Coughing]
444
00:19:03,231 --> 00:19:04,698
Jackson: There you go.
445
00:19:06,101 --> 00:19:07,668
Oh, no.
446
00:19:07,702 --> 00:19:10,170
[Coughing continues]
447
00:19:10,205 --> 00:19:12,239
That's okay. That's okay.
448
00:19:12,273 --> 00:19:14,041
It's okay. It's okay.
449
00:19:14,075 --> 00:19:16,243
- It's okay, Mom.
- [Coughing continues]
450
00:19:16,277 --> 00:19:19,046
♪ ♪
451
00:19:21,783 --> 00:19:23,183
Okay.
452
00:20:13,494 --> 00:20:16,742
- [Indistinct conversations]
- [Water running]
453
00:20:16,849 --> 00:20:19,717
- I just heard... an esophageal tear?
- Yeah.
454
00:20:19,752 --> 00:20:21,286
Hopefully, it's contained
455
00:20:21,320 --> 00:20:23,521
and I don't have to open her chest.
456
00:20:30,696 --> 00:20:32,163
What are you doing?
457
00:20:32,198 --> 00:20:35,366
I should do the EGD. You're too close.
458
00:20:35,401 --> 00:20:37,202
Go take care of Maggie.
459
00:20:37,236 --> 00:20:39,390
Let me do this for you.
460
00:20:40,272 --> 00:20:42,340
Don't pretend you're doing this for me.
461
00:20:42,374 --> 00:20:44,242
You've made it very clear for some time
462
00:20:44,276 --> 00:20:46,377
that my well-being is
the lowest of your priorities.
463
00:20:46,412 --> 00:20:48,713
Do... Hey, I'm just trying to help.
464
00:20:50,349 --> 00:20:51,962
If I needed help...
465
00:20:52,851 --> 00:20:54,552
you'd be the last person I'd call.
466
00:20:56,188 --> 00:20:58,823
[Door slides open]
467
00:20:58,857 --> 00:21:01,926
[Door slides closed]
468
00:21:01,961 --> 00:21:03,561
You had to do a thoracotomy?
469
00:21:03,596 --> 00:21:05,363
[Sighs] Yeah.
The tear was full thickness.
470
00:21:05,397 --> 00:21:08,233
Conservative management wasn't
the way to go here, Maggie.
471
00:21:08,267 --> 00:21:10,902
No, you're right. Thank you.
472
00:21:10,936 --> 00:21:13,771
[Breathes deeply] So,
we'll start her on tube feeds?
473
00:21:13,806 --> 00:21:16,274
Um, we're... we're...
we're not there yet.
474
00:21:16,308 --> 00:21:18,443
Uh. She's on TPN for now,
475
00:21:18,477 --> 00:21:20,345
and I'm also concerned about sepsis,
476
00:21:20,379 --> 00:21:23,414
so we've started her
on broad-spectrum antibiotics.
477
00:21:23,449 --> 00:21:25,450
She's still sedated for the pain,
478
00:21:25,484 --> 00:21:27,418
and we'll keep her on PCA.
479
00:21:27,453 --> 00:21:29,306
Hey, keep her comfortable.
480
00:21:30,222 --> 00:21:31,789
Do you need anything from home?
481
00:21:31,824 --> 00:21:33,691
Do you want us to get you anything?
482
00:21:33,726 --> 00:21:35,360
We need to get her on her feet ASAP.
483
00:21:35,394 --> 00:21:37,195
If she misses any of her infusions,
484
00:21:37,229 --> 00:21:38,631
she'll lose her position in the study.
485
00:21:38,665 --> 00:21:40,398
- Maggie...
- I'd like for us to get Diane
486
00:21:40,432 --> 00:21:42,367
through the next 24 hours, okay?
487
00:21:42,401 --> 00:21:44,469
And then, we'll... we'll see
where we are from there.
488
00:21:44,503 --> 00:21:47,538
♪ ♪
489
00:22:00,753 --> 00:22:02,420
Maggie.
490
00:22:03,922 --> 00:22:05,223
I really don't need you
491
00:22:05,257 --> 00:22:07,425
trying to talk me
out of anything right now.
492
00:22:09,795 --> 00:22:12,497
This protocol is making Diane so sick
493
00:22:12,531 --> 00:22:14,065
that her esophagus tore.
494
00:22:14,099 --> 00:22:16,000
That could just be from the cancer.
495
00:22:16,035 --> 00:22:18,436
But you can't wait to get her
to her next infusion.
496
00:22:18,470 --> 00:22:20,738
Because my mom wants to live!
497
00:22:20,773 --> 00:22:23,074
And this clinical trial
could give that to her.
498
00:22:23,108 --> 00:22:24,442
She wanted to do it.
499
00:22:24,476 --> 00:22:26,153
- She could've said "no."
- How?
500
00:22:26,187 --> 00:22:27,612
How can she say "no" when her daughter,
501
00:22:27,646 --> 00:22:30,014
who is a surgeon,
is standing right there,
502
00:22:30,049 --> 00:22:30,882
pushing it on her?
503
00:22:30,916 --> 00:22:33,117
There have been favorable outcomes!
504
00:22:34,620 --> 00:22:37,021
I just need to get her
to the end of the treatment.
505
00:22:37,056 --> 00:22:38,591
She won't make it
to the end of the treatment.
506
00:22:38,625 --> 00:22:41,526
She's already dying, and now
she's suffering because of it.
507
00:22:41,560 --> 00:22:43,461
At least I'm doing something.
508
00:22:43,495 --> 00:22:46,297
At least I'm not just giving up
and saying "no."
509
00:22:48,400 --> 00:22:51,035
We are only doing her harm.
510
00:22:51,070 --> 00:22:54,038
You don't get it! You wouldn't!
511
00:22:54,073 --> 00:22:56,607
Meredith, I love my mother enough
512
00:22:56,642 --> 00:22:58,109
not to say, "Screw it,"
513
00:22:58,143 --> 00:23:00,445
and throw her down a damn drain.
514
00:23:00,479 --> 00:23:03,481
♪ ♪
515
00:23:09,154 --> 00:23:10,555
What do you need?
516
00:23:10,589 --> 00:23:12,357
What can I do?
517
00:23:12,391 --> 00:23:15,760
♪ ♪
518
00:23:17,529 --> 00:23:19,997
[Thunder rumbling]
519
00:23:23,836 --> 00:23:26,437
[Monitor beeping]
520
00:23:27,706 --> 00:23:30,041
[Weakly] Where's Maggie?
521
00:23:30,075 --> 00:23:31,465
Diane...
522
00:23:33,011 --> 00:23:35,881
you don't have to keep
putting yourself through this.
523
00:23:36,915 --> 00:23:38,770
Not if you don't want to.
524
00:23:40,586 --> 00:23:44,188
I was born in a two-room shack
with an outhouse,
525
00:23:44,223 --> 00:23:46,090
six brothers,
526
00:23:46,125 --> 00:23:51,450
not a lot of food or love
or... anything.
527
00:23:52,297 --> 00:23:55,689
Getting out of there was...
528
00:23:57,970 --> 00:24:03,608
When that social worker
put this little baby in my arms,
529
00:24:03,642 --> 00:24:07,825
when I looked down at my Maggie...
530
00:24:09,481 --> 00:24:15,514
Maggie is the universe giving me a gift.
531
00:24:16,121 --> 00:24:20,858
She is... a happy person.
532
00:24:20,893 --> 00:24:23,706
She's cheerful.
533
00:24:24,296 --> 00:24:26,431
Maggie is rare.
534
00:24:26,465 --> 00:24:28,722
She's special.
535
00:24:29,635 --> 00:24:30,970
This...
536
00:24:31,637 --> 00:24:35,250
This will give her darkness.
537
00:24:36,675 --> 00:24:38,776
How could I do that
538
00:24:38,811 --> 00:24:43,080
to the most special person
in the whole world?
539
00:24:46,084 --> 00:24:50,655
When I die, she needs to know
540
00:24:50,689 --> 00:24:54,725
that she did everything that she could.
541
00:24:54,760 --> 00:24:58,129
Diane, she has.
542
00:24:58,163 --> 00:25:01,129
Maggie's done everything there is to do.
543
00:25:02,668 --> 00:25:06,771
I can't stop. I-I can't do that to her.
544
00:25:06,805 --> 00:25:08,005
Well, she can take it.
545
00:25:08,040 --> 00:25:10,274
You may not see it, because you knew her
546
00:25:10,309 --> 00:25:12,009
since she was a little girl.
547
00:25:12,044 --> 00:25:13,499
I mean, I didn't.
548
00:25:13,533 --> 00:25:16,477
I only know the woman you raised.
549
00:25:17,883 --> 00:25:22,920
And that woman is smart
and strong as iron,
550
00:25:22,955 --> 00:25:25,599
especially for the people she loves.
551
00:25:27,392 --> 00:25:31,142
Now [chuckles] well,
552
00:25:31,897 --> 00:25:34,271
now I see where she gets it.
553
00:25:38,003 --> 00:25:40,037
I don't want to die.
554
00:25:40,072 --> 00:25:41,506
[Beeping continues]
555
00:25:41,540 --> 00:25:44,575
[Sleeping At Last's
"10,000 Miles" plays]
556
00:25:53,652 --> 00:25:59,724
- ♪ Fare thee well ♪
- [Breathing heavily]
557
00:25:59,758 --> 00:26:01,692
- ♪ My own true love ♪
- Hey.
558
00:26:01,727 --> 00:26:03,294
So, I'm gonna put out a couple of calls
559
00:26:03,328 --> 00:26:05,196
to some old professors from Boston.
560
00:26:05,230 --> 00:26:06,731
Do you remember Dr. Luckett?
561
00:26:06,765 --> 00:26:08,633
He specializes in radioactive...
562
00:26:08,667 --> 00:26:09,700
Maggie...
563
00:26:09,735 --> 00:26:13,538
♪ Farewell for a while ♪
564
00:26:13,572 --> 00:26:15,006
♪ I'm going away ♪
565
00:26:15,040 --> 00:26:17,141
Don't you dare quit on me now.
566
00:26:17,175 --> 00:26:19,810
Y-You can't. You can't quit on me.
567
00:26:19,845 --> 00:26:21,479
We can beat this.
568
00:26:21,513 --> 00:26:24,740
- ♪ But I'll be back ♪
- You have to fight. I'll help you.
569
00:26:26,051 --> 00:26:28,553
Sweetie... [Sighs]
570
00:26:28,587 --> 00:26:31,051
Sit down and let me talk to you.
571
00:26:32,958 --> 00:26:35,359
[Breathing deeply]
572
00:26:35,394 --> 00:26:36,861
[Monitor beeping]
573
00:26:36,895 --> 00:26:39,897
♪ ♪
574
00:26:46,138 --> 00:26:47,838
[Indistinct conversations]
575
00:26:47,873 --> 00:26:51,008
♪ ♪
576
00:26:51,043 --> 00:26:53,110
Get those to the lab for me. Thank you.
577
00:26:53,145 --> 00:26:57,048
♪ Though I go 10,000 miles ♪
578
00:26:59,718 --> 00:27:06,023
♪ 10,000 miles ♪
579
00:27:06,058 --> 00:27:07,892
♪ My own true love ♪
580
00:27:07,926 --> 00:27:09,360
You all right?
581
00:27:09,394 --> 00:27:10,444
No.
582
00:27:12,631 --> 00:27:13,864
[Sighs]
583
00:27:13,899 --> 00:27:15,866
♪ 10,000 miles or more ♪
584
00:27:15,901 --> 00:27:17,301
Do you want to sit down?
585
00:27:17,336 --> 00:27:18,739
[Voice breaking] No.
586
00:27:19,571 --> 00:27:20,671
[Exhales sharply]
587
00:27:20,706 --> 00:27:23,404
- ♪ The rocks may melt ♪
- I just wish my dad was here.
588
00:27:24,276 --> 00:27:27,144
[Sighing]
589
00:27:27,179 --> 00:27:34,752
♪ And the seas may burn ♪
590
00:27:34,786 --> 00:27:40,291
♪ If I should not return ♪
591
00:27:40,325 --> 00:27:42,259
[Door opens]
592
00:27:42,294 --> 00:27:45,296
♪ ♪
593
00:27:49,701 --> 00:27:54,071
♪ Oh, don't you see... ♪
594
00:27:54,106 --> 00:27:55,773
Maggie?
595
00:27:55,807 --> 00:27:59,803
♪ ...that lonesome dove... ♪
596
00:28:01,013 --> 00:28:02,813
Meredith doesn't get it.
597
00:28:02,848 --> 00:28:04,482
She's just worried about you.
598
00:28:04,516 --> 00:28:07,777
- ♪ ...sitting on an ivy tree? ♪
- I just got started.
599
00:28:09,187 --> 00:28:12,757
My mom has been sick for months
without me knowing...
600
00:28:12,791 --> 00:28:14,091
- months.
- ♪ She's weeping for ♪
601
00:28:14,126 --> 00:28:16,327
I feel like I left the house
with the oven on
602
00:28:16,361 --> 00:28:17,995
and went about my business...
603
00:28:18,030 --> 00:28:19,349
- ♪ Her own true love ♪
- ...and came back to find
604
00:28:19,374 --> 00:28:21,532
the whole house engulfed in flames.
605
00:28:21,566 --> 00:28:24,420
And no one will let me in.
606
00:28:24,970 --> 00:28:28,039
♪ She's weeping for ♪ - No matter
what I do, I can't get inside.
607
00:28:28,473 --> 00:28:30,512
I can't save anything.
608
00:28:31,743 --> 00:28:35,144
- ♪ Her own true love ♪
- I could've stopped it if I had known.
609
00:28:36,548 --> 00:28:39,016
S-So, I can't give up.
I can't give up, not now.
610
00:28:39,051 --> 00:28:42,401
- ♪ As I shall weep for mine ♪
- [Crying]
611
00:28:42,435 --> 00:28:44,822
- Hey.
- What are you doing?
612
00:28:44,856 --> 00:28:46,057
What? [Sniffles]
613
00:28:46,091 --> 00:28:47,653
Come here.
614
00:28:48,560 --> 00:28:50,795
[Sobbing]
615
00:28:50,829 --> 00:28:53,731
♪ ♪
616
00:28:53,765 --> 00:28:55,499
♪ Oh, come ye back ♪
617
00:28:55,534 --> 00:28:59,370
Thank you. Mnh.
618
00:28:59,404 --> 00:29:01,739
♪ My own true love ♪
619
00:29:01,773 --> 00:29:03,841
Thank you.
620
00:29:04,803 --> 00:29:07,044
[Door opens, closes]
621
00:29:07,079 --> 00:29:12,402
♪ And stay a while with me ♪
622
00:29:13,351 --> 00:29:18,906
♪ If I had a friend ♪
623
00:29:20,392 --> 00:29:23,260
♪ All on this earth ♪
624
00:29:23,295 --> 00:29:25,138
She's gonna go...
625
00:29:26,298 --> 00:29:27,665
and I'm not ready.
626
00:29:27,699 --> 00:29:31,836
♪ You've been a friend to me ♪
627
00:29:31,870 --> 00:29:33,483
I'm not ready.
628
00:29:35,040 --> 00:29:37,010
You're never ready.
629
00:29:37,809 --> 00:29:40,459
You just do it.
630
00:29:41,619 --> 00:29:44,554
- Listen to her.
- ♪ You've been a friend to me ♪
631
00:29:44,583 --> 00:29:46,550
Talk about whatever
she wants to talk about
632
00:29:46,585 --> 00:29:48,953
and record her voice in your mind
633
00:29:48,987 --> 00:29:50,287
and memorize everything.
634
00:29:50,322 --> 00:29:51,956
♪ You've been a friend to me ♪
635
00:29:51,990 --> 00:29:54,125
And just keep sitting there.
636
00:29:54,159 --> 00:29:56,594
♪ ♪
637
00:29:59,218 --> 00:30:02,951
♪ Fare thee well ♪
638
00:30:02,989 --> 00:30:04,662
[Door closes]
639
00:30:04,876 --> 00:30:09,089
♪ My own true love
640
00:30:12,958 --> 00:30:17,608
♪ Farewell for a while ♪
641
00:30:19,211 --> 00:30:24,857
♪ I'm going away ♪
642
00:30:29,576 --> 00:30:31,177
- Orgasms.
- No.
643
00:30:31,211 --> 00:30:32,878
It's not a dirty word.
644
00:30:32,913 --> 00:30:34,614
No, no!
645
00:30:35,882 --> 00:30:37,883
I'm dying.
646
00:30:37,918 --> 00:30:40,519
I have to impart wisdom.
647
00:30:40,554 --> 00:30:43,014
This wisdom, right now?
648
00:30:43,624 --> 00:30:44,457
You have got time.
649
00:30:44,491 --> 00:30:47,159
You don't have to go there right now.
650
00:30:47,194 --> 00:30:48,221
Mm.
651
00:30:49,363 --> 00:30:50,596
I've had orgasms.
652
00:30:50,631 --> 00:30:52,598
Oh, well, good.
653
00:30:52,633 --> 00:30:55,735
They're not a gift. It's your right.
654
00:30:55,769 --> 00:30:58,671
Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
655
00:30:58,705 --> 00:31:00,740
- And this is important.
- Mm-hmm.
656
00:31:00,774 --> 00:31:03,536
At least once a day.
657
00:31:04,111 --> 00:31:07,113
Sometimes, I like to wait until
right before bedtime, but...
658
00:31:07,147 --> 00:31:08,014
No, God!
659
00:31:08,048 --> 00:31:09,489
No, Mom! Stop.
660
00:31:10,530 --> 00:31:13,131
You are too intense.
661
00:31:13,286 --> 00:31:15,087
Have some fun.
662
00:31:15,122 --> 00:31:16,589
I have plenty of fun.
663
00:31:16,623 --> 00:31:18,055
Which color?
664
00:31:18,659 --> 00:31:20,006
The darker.
665
00:31:20,761 --> 00:31:23,596
Oh, did you call about my eyelashes?
666
00:31:23,630 --> 00:31:26,132
You know I wanna die
with my eyelashes on.
667
00:31:26,166 --> 00:31:28,054
Eyelashes are tomorrow.
668
00:31:29,436 --> 00:31:31,804
[Sighs] Good.
669
00:31:31,838 --> 00:31:35,712
You were always so good.
670
00:31:36,910 --> 00:31:38,286
What do you mean?
671
00:31:39,746 --> 00:31:44,617
Incredible grades, a clean room,
672
00:31:44,651 --> 00:31:46,742
ooh, you never talked back,
673
00:31:47,654 --> 00:31:51,791
and you never messed around
with the boys.
674
00:31:51,825 --> 00:31:53,893
Most parents would appreciate that.
675
00:31:53,927 --> 00:31:56,173
Oh, I did... then.
676
00:31:56,615 --> 00:31:58,041
But now...
677
00:31:59,253 --> 00:32:02,153
You need to shake it up a little.
678
00:32:02,187 --> 00:32:04,724
Mm. Be a little lazy
679
00:32:04,758 --> 00:32:08,326
or a little slutty.
680
00:32:09,329 --> 00:32:11,264
Make a mistake.
681
00:32:11,298 --> 00:32:12,938
I have a job.
682
00:32:13,534 --> 00:32:15,568
Well, you're never gonna
look back and say,
683
00:32:15,602 --> 00:32:17,403
"I wish I'd been more uptight."
684
00:32:17,437 --> 00:32:19,438
Okay, Mom, you have to be still,
685
00:32:19,473 --> 00:32:20,473
or else I can't finish this.
686
00:32:20,507 --> 00:32:24,810
And stop always saying
what everyone wants to hear.
687
00:32:24,845 --> 00:32:26,512
Tell someone off.
688
00:32:26,547 --> 00:32:27,747
[Laughs]
689
00:32:27,781 --> 00:32:31,122
It's good for 'em and better for you.
690
00:32:31,685 --> 00:32:35,050
Especially if it's a car salesperson.
691
00:32:35,522 --> 00:32:37,690
- Do you like the color?
- I do.
692
00:32:37,724 --> 00:32:38,624
Okay.
693
00:32:38,659 --> 00:32:40,593
- And don't forget the t...
- The topcoat, I know.
694
00:32:40,627 --> 00:32:43,863
[Coughing]
695
00:32:43,897 --> 00:32:46,098
- Want some water?
- Mm.
696
00:32:46,133 --> 00:32:47,366
[Coughing continues]
697
00:32:47,401 --> 00:32:49,802
[Nail polish bottle thumps lightly]
698
00:32:49,836 --> 00:32:51,737
[Coughing continues]
699
00:32:53,540 --> 00:32:55,445
Mnh.
700
00:32:57,144 --> 00:32:59,879
Mnh. Mnh.
701
00:32:59,913 --> 00:33:01,344
Mnh.
702
00:33:01,882 --> 00:33:04,050
[Coughing]
703
00:33:04,084 --> 00:33:05,518
Want me to keep going?
704
00:33:05,552 --> 00:33:07,653
[Breathes deeply]
705
00:33:08,882 --> 00:33:11,016
[Glass thumps lightly]
706
00:33:11,491 --> 00:33:14,875
I brought my engagement ring to Seattle.
707
00:33:15,562 --> 00:33:19,031
It's at the house in my jewelry bag,
708
00:33:19,066 --> 00:33:21,567
and I want you to have it.
709
00:33:21,602 --> 00:33:24,637
- Mom.
- Your father gave it to me.
710
00:33:24,671 --> 00:33:26,539
He'd want you to have it, too.
711
00:33:26,573 --> 00:33:28,322
So, please.
712
00:33:29,610 --> 00:33:31,026
Okay.
713
00:33:31,778 --> 00:33:33,123
Thank you.
714
00:33:36,683 --> 00:33:39,246
I want you to fall in love.
715
00:33:39,720 --> 00:33:42,855
And it has to be somebody who's worthy.
716
00:33:42,889 --> 00:33:46,492
Find a decent man who loves you
717
00:33:46,526 --> 00:33:49,328
just a little more than you love him.
718
00:33:49,363 --> 00:33:51,597
How about equally as much?
How about that?
719
00:33:51,632 --> 00:33:55,434
No, he needs to think
he is lucky to have you
720
00:33:55,469 --> 00:33:57,003
and not the other way around.
721
00:33:57,037 --> 00:33:58,533
Other hand.
722
00:33:59,706 --> 00:34:03,638
Never make yourself small for anyone.
723
00:34:05,646 --> 00:34:07,522
Be your own person.
724
00:34:09,983 --> 00:34:12,351
And try wearing a little lipstick.
725
00:34:12,386 --> 00:34:14,020
You know, Mom, if you keep going
at this rate,
726
00:34:14,054 --> 00:34:16,531
you're gonna run out of advice
before tomorrow.
727
00:34:16,566 --> 00:34:21,527
Mm. Phew, this polish smells.
728
00:34:21,561 --> 00:34:22,933
Want me to open a window?
729
00:34:22,968 --> 00:34:26,932
- Oh. That would be nice.
- [Sighs]
730
00:34:29,002 --> 00:34:31,537
[Birds chirping]
731
00:34:31,571 --> 00:34:33,806
[Window creaks]
732
00:34:33,840 --> 00:34:35,808
It stopped raining.
733
00:34:35,842 --> 00:34:37,810
[Chirping continues]
734
00:34:37,844 --> 00:34:39,311
Okay, I'm not gonna leave it
open too long,
735
00:34:39,346 --> 00:34:41,013
or you'll catch a chill.
736
00:34:41,982 --> 00:34:43,816
[Chuckles] Typical.
737
00:34:43,850 --> 00:34:46,419
Bring you to a hospital,
help you catch a cold.
738
00:34:46,453 --> 00:34:47,620
[Sighs]
739
00:34:47,654 --> 00:34:49,092
Mom?
740
00:34:50,357 --> 00:34:51,971
Mom?
741
00:34:56,630 --> 00:34:57,757
Mom?
742
00:34:59,266 --> 00:35:00,933
[Voice breaking] Mommy.
743
00:35:00,967 --> 00:35:02,768
[Crying]
744
00:35:08,675 --> 00:35:09,974
[Sniffles]
745
00:35:10,644 --> 00:35:12,945
[Sobbing]
746
00:35:51,998 --> 00:35:54,533
[Wind rushing]
747
00:35:54,558 --> 00:35:56,126
[Sobbing]
748
00:36:06,245 --> 00:36:07,679
[Helicopter blades whirring]
749
00:36:13,758 --> 00:36:17,061
[Tegan and Sara's "Closer" plays]
750
00:36:29,462 --> 00:36:34,933
♪ All I want to get is ♪
751
00:36:34,968 --> 00:36:39,972
♪ A little bit closer ♪
752
00:36:40,006 --> 00:36:44,876
♪ All I want to know is ♪
753
00:36:44,911 --> 00:36:50,282
♪ Can you come a little closer? ♪
754
00:36:50,316 --> 00:36:52,784
♪ Here comes the breath before we get ♪
755
00:36:52,819 --> 00:36:55,020
[Sighing]
756
00:36:55,054 --> 00:36:55,988
[Elevator bell dings]
757
00:36:56,022 --> 00:36:59,691
♪ A little bit closer ♪
758
00:36:59,726 --> 00:37:01,893
- ♪ Here comes the rush ♪
- Listen, I... I-I know the flight...
759
00:37:01,928 --> 00:37:04,963
- ♪ Before we touch ♪
- ...the helicopter had to be expensive,
760
00:37:04,998 --> 00:37:08,166
- and so I'll write you a check.
- ♪ Come a little closer ♪
761
00:37:08,201 --> 00:37:11,470
Hey. No... No need. No.
762
00:37:11,504 --> 00:37:12,604
This is family.
763
00:37:12,638 --> 00:37:14,320
♪ The doors are open,
the wind is really blowing ♪
764
00:37:14,355 --> 00:37:15,974
- Thank you.
- Yeah.
765
00:37:16,009 --> 00:37:18,744
♪ The night sky is changing overhead ♪
766
00:37:18,778 --> 00:37:21,046
[Sighs]
767
00:37:21,080 --> 00:37:22,314
- [Elevator bell dings]
- [Clears throat]
768
00:37:22,348 --> 00:37:25,550
♪ It's not all physical ♪
769
00:37:25,585 --> 00:37:28,920
♪ I'm not the type
that will get too critical ♪
770
00:37:28,955 --> 00:37:31,890
♪ So let's make it physical ♪
771
00:37:31,924 --> 00:37:34,926
♪ I won't treat you
like you're oh so typical ♪
772
00:37:34,961 --> 00:37:37,062
[Sighs]
773
00:37:37,096 --> 00:37:39,865
♪ ♪
774
00:37:46,305 --> 00:37:47,939
Thank you.
775
00:37:47,974 --> 00:37:51,009
♪ ♪
776
00:37:54,547 --> 00:37:55,947
Daddy?
777
00:37:55,982 --> 00:37:58,183
Daddy.
778
00:37:58,217 --> 00:38:00,819
[Crying]
779
00:38:02,388 --> 00:38:07,292
♪ All you think of lately ♪
780
00:38:07,326 --> 00:38:10,228
♪ Is how you could get near me ♪
781
00:38:10,263 --> 00:38:12,731
[Crying continues]
782
00:38:12,765 --> 00:38:17,903
- ♪ All I dream of lately ♪
- [Door clicks]
783
00:38:17,937 --> 00:38:22,874
♪ Is how to get you near me ♪
784
00:38:22,909 --> 00:38:28,380
♪ Here comes the heat before we meet ♪
785
00:38:28,414 --> 00:38:30,415
♪ A little bit closer ♪
786
00:38:30,450 --> 00:38:32,060
Hey.
787
00:38:32,819 --> 00:38:34,286
- Hey.
- ♪ Here comes the spark
788
00:38:34,320 --> 00:38:35,487
- [Elevator bell dings]
- How's Pierce?
789
00:38:35,521 --> 00:38:37,192
- ♪ Before the dark ♪
- Not great.
790
00:38:38,257 --> 00:38:41,126
- Yeah. I'm sorry to hear about Diane.
- ♪ Come a little closer ♪
791
00:38:44,097 --> 00:38:46,631
- She's gonna need me now.
- ♪ The lights are off, ♪
792
00:38:46,666 --> 00:38:48,567
For how long, I don't know.
793
00:38:48,601 --> 00:38:49,901
♪ The night sky is changing overhead ♪
794
00:38:49,936 --> 00:38:51,169
I know.
795
00:38:51,971 --> 00:38:52,971
[Elevator bell dings]
796
00:38:53,005 --> 00:38:54,573
[Elevator doors open]
797
00:38:54,607 --> 00:38:57,242
♪ ♪
798
00:38:57,276 --> 00:38:58,844
[Button clicks]
799
00:38:58,878 --> 00:39:01,646
Our timing's just... off, I guess.
800
00:39:01,681 --> 00:39:03,748
I think about my mom's note
all the time.
801
00:39:03,783 --> 00:39:06,251
- ♪ It's not all physical ♪
- Tell Meredith not to...
802
00:39:06,285 --> 00:39:08,086
♪ I'm not the type
that will get too critical ♪
803
00:39:08,121 --> 00:39:10,021
Not to cave? Not to care?
804
00:39:10,056 --> 00:39:12,591
- ♪ So let's make it physical ♪
- Not to give up so easily?
805
00:39:12,625 --> 00:39:13,825
♪ I won't treat you
like you're oh so typical ♪
806
00:39:13,860 --> 00:39:15,327
Not to fall in love?
807
00:39:15,361 --> 00:39:17,978
- ♪ It's not all physical ♪
- Not to have children?
808
00:39:18,003 --> 00:39:19,498
Not to tell a lie?
809
00:39:19,532 --> 00:39:20,632
♪ I'm not the type ♪
♪ that will get too critical ♪
810
00:39:20,666 --> 00:39:22,167
[Sighs]
811
00:39:22,201 --> 00:39:23,663
♪ So let's make it physical ♪
812
00:39:23,697 --> 00:39:25,203
She left me wondering...
813
00:39:25,238 --> 00:39:26,417
♪ I won't treat you
like you're oh so typical ♪
814
00:39:26,452 --> 00:39:30,308
...what to do, what not to do.
815
00:39:30,343 --> 00:39:31,843
Damn it.
816
00:39:31,878 --> 00:39:36,181
♪ I won't treat you
like you're oh so typical ♪
817
00:39:38,217 --> 00:39:44,004
♪ I won't treat you
like you're oh so typical ♪
818
00:39:44,690 --> 00:39:46,324
What?
819
00:39:46,359 --> 00:39:49,394
She left me knowing
everything was up to me.
820
00:39:49,428 --> 00:39:51,196
[Plastic wrapping crinkles]
821
00:39:51,230 --> 00:39:53,098
And me alone.
822
00:39:59,038 --> 00:40:00,872
[Sighs]
823
00:40:04,417 --> 00:40:06,488
Ellis never forgave me.
824
00:40:07,013 --> 00:40:10,032
She went to her grave
without forgiving me.
825
00:40:12,808 --> 00:40:15,548
It robbed me of so many things...
826
00:40:18,090 --> 00:40:20,292
so many things.
827
00:40:24,925 --> 00:40:27,104
Let's not do that to each other.
828
00:40:30,848 --> 00:40:33,104
And she left me with no one to ask.
829
00:40:33,139 --> 00:40:35,140
[Insects chirping]
830
00:40:36,609 --> 00:40:39,578
So I would decide
what she meant to write.
831
00:40:42,913 --> 00:40:45,684
"Tell Meredith not to be afraid."
832
00:40:45,718 --> 00:40:47,719
[Chirping continues]
833
00:41:22,200 --> 00:41:23,867
Goodbye, Mom.
834
00:41:25,671 --> 00:41:34,155
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